Wednesday, June 13, 2012

In Perpetuity




Holy shit!  What are we to think?  The blog is blowing up on us for real.  Sometimes I get sad that more people do not come, then suddenly, our population swells.  I am linked to more sites, I know, but it is also that my site has been around for a long time now and almost anything you Google will bring you here eventually.  Perseverance.  Welcome all.  I hope you will not be lazy and that you will read back through all the posts.

Some dream.

P.G. wrote me today.  I mean. . . she wrote to me after I drunk emailed her last night.  About "Gelhorn."  I shouldn't, I understand, but you know that you do the same thing, too.  Right?  I mean, we all love someone the way they used to be, the thing we remember, the archetypal. . . etc.   There always "was a time. . . . "

Well.  She wrote me back a critique of the blog.  She said:
Of course I still follow your blog every now & again. I like to read it when it's less self loathing ... sometimes you sound so hateful about yourself. I like your observations best -- your perception of your every day. 
Ouch!  "[E]very now and again"!  What?  Of course none of you take the buffoon who narrates this blog as me!?!

Oh, I have self-loathing, of course.  That, and much else, too.  But I know she is right from the comments I receive from you.  You like the observations best, too.  Still, I would have to live much more fully and have more of my own time to do that.  I am a working slob, for god's sake, an amateur in the purest form, and I can't compete with the professional crowd who get to do it for a living.  And that is what P.G. is.  If I gave you her name, you could read her for real.

But whatever.  I will tell the story one day, if I can ever manage it.  It will have to be when I am off for a very long and sustained time.

Red wrote and asked if I was free on Friday.  In perpetuity, I said, knowing how that might sound.  But there are things to (I almost said "live for) anticipate.  Tomorrow night I shoot with a model I shot with when I first got the studio.  She was the second one, I think.  She was pregnant then and now is again.  And she is bringing her three year old boy who is still suckling.  Yikes!  Time will have nothing on me.

But you may have noticed that I haven't shown my own pictures in a few days.  I am trying to force myself to work "in the field" to bring fresh, new images to you.  It could be a while.  So what the hell.  Here is a photo at the end to remind you that I am working. . . all the time.


3 comments:

  1. Beautiful photo!
    I only photographed a couple one time so far.
    But I sure hope I can do it more often, with my toy camera.
    It's big fun!
    XXX

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  2. Yes, it's worthwhile to read the old posts. I started working my way backwards for a while and then jumped to the end and worked my way forward for another while. I think there may be a year and a half or so in the middle that I have yet to explore.

    I still wish you would put all your photos on a tumblr, Selavy, so we could browse all the thumbnails on an archive page and really get a feel for the extent of your work. (OK, I'm sorry, I know I have said this to you before--I'll try not to bring it up again--but seriously, tumblrs are wicked easy to update....)

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  3. N, It is a challenge shooting two people. It is more than twice the effort to get the picture. But when it clicks. . . oh, my. There will be more.

    A, Thank you so much for the endorsement. I think there is something in most posts--an image, a phrase--that makes it worthwhile. And sometimes even an entire post works, too :)

    As far as Tumblr goes--not yet. I may make a website soon. But I am still trying to stay a bit under the radar.

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