O.K. Jeez. I'm having enough of a rough time as it is. Here. No couch. I took this in 1923 at the Bal de Montparnasse. Afterward, we went out and drank "The Green Fairy" and she performed for a smaller crowd. Hemingway was like a boy. He kept talking in what he thought passed for "Indian" language. If I had been bigger, I would have hit him. We had to get away. She lived near Rue Pigalle, but I wanted to go in the other direction. Left Bank. We sat in a neighborhood bar that never made it into a famous novel. The drinks were cheap and she was magnificent. It was all simpler then. You could do what you wanted, it seemed, though now we don't believe in any of that. No free will. We are all slaves to dogma and narrative. But really it occured to me then that she just liked dancing. Naked, because she could. If I looked like that, I told her late that night after too many drinks, I would never put my clothes on. She didn't need to for a very long time. And she never will. Here she is in the 21st Century just as she appeared then and will always be.
I came home last night and tried to cook dinner. My gas had been shut off. I didn't pay the bill. It is not that I couldn't. I just hadn't. That meant no heat, either. I am bundled up without hot food. I need a caretaker.
I have been searching for absinthe glasses for years -- real ones not repros. I have I told you this already?
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I found a 4 saucers a few weekends ago. They are lovely. They look like this -- but are not in AS good condition and red but still. It is difficult to find good antique French stuff around here. All these damn Pilgrims and all.
http://www.absintheoriginals.com/images/4fr-Blue-Darts.jpg
Anyone ever want to take the mask off?
P.S. I gave you more than one day ...
With love,
Matene
good to see you back! I was in the dark recently because I had forgotten to pay the electric bill. But I am often 'in the dark' so it felt normal!
ReplyDeleteL, If you find the glasses--I have an unopened bottle of Absinthe that my friend sent to me from some Eastern European country (he will shiver when he reads this to think it has not been consumed and he will want it back). And you should pay more attention to what I do. Half the people I post do not have masks on. Indeed, though, I have to coax them off. They are all ashamed to be naked and wish to hide their identities in the days of persoanl enslavement and the non-religious Puritanism.
ReplyDeleteR, We are not automatons. We do not live by calendars and clocks. We live on intuitive time and pay our bills intuitively, too. We are almost artists, goddamit.