Never Want

The sound of a semi truck in a quiet neighborhood at dawn.  The silence of friends.  You think about looking up your horoscope just to see.

Your inspirations and original ideas take concrete form now. This is a very positive time when the opportunity to do the things that you love presents itself. You feel freed from restrictions and obstacles, and your creative abilities are very strong. Your responsibilities in your job are likely to change at this time, allowing you greater freedom and additional resources to pursue the work that you love.

Wow, you think.  That is not how it feels.  Then you see you've made a mistake.  The entry is for Thursday. . . Aug. 4.  You skip ahead one week.

Duties and obligations seem burdensome or at least emotionally restricting to you, and you may feel self-pity or temporarily down in the dumps. You are not in a sociable, gregarious mood no matter what surroundings you find yourself in.

And then today.

Your vitality and courage are strong now and you are eager to meet challenges. You can accomplish a great deal of work, especially if it involves physical effort. If you are active in sports, you will be especially competitive and vigorous now. Self-confidence is high.

It might as well say a shark will eat your cat if she goes near the water.  Well. . . she and I are fighting right now, so. . . .  Which is all the commentary one needs to get a good read on how interesting my life is.  I am paralyzed by duty and by quandary.

"Be liked and you will never want" (Willy Loman, "Death of a Salesman").