Empty Hole

Originally Posted Sunday, April 14, 2013

I've been looking for some cello music to put with this post, but I found nothing I liked and got tired fo searching.  Obviously, I don't own any, but I like stringed trios and quartets.  I like the cello.  It is a beautiful instrument to look at as well as to listen to.  I should have Googled "Nude Cello Music." 

O.K.  I just did.  There are plenty of things, of course, both images and videos.  C'est la vie.

I also found "The 99 Most Essential Masterpieces" on Amazon.  I guess I'm not that committed to it. 

Or to much else lately for that matter.  I am cranky.  Irritable.  Grumpy. 

To wit, I have stayed alone this weekend without going out, without seeing anyone, eating alone, watching movies alone, going to bed by myself very, very early. 

It hasn't helped. 

Other people are having fun.  I am sure of it.  All the time.  Everywhere. 

I don't care.  It means nothing.  It is all like that, just some empty hole into which we throw the hours. 

Mine is the only light I can see in the early morning.  People are asleep.  That. . . I can envy.