Originally Posted Thursday, July 25, 2013
I am completely nonplussed right now. That is not the right word exactly, but I like it. Flummoxed, one of its synonyms, may be more correct, but it hasn't the sound I am looking for. All relationships have soured or gone somewhat south. This blog is not attracting a crowd. Models, once enamored of my work, have developed a Jersey Shore attitude. I still have sciatica and am walking like Fred Sanford, so I am not able to defend myself and my artistic virility as I should. My summer drinking is becoming problematic. I am diluting my good whiskey with Belgian Ales 1:1. The only woman showing interest in me is young and crazier than I. She is able to provide good drugs, though, for she has a "shrink" who writes prescriptions without analysis. She can give me things that supposedly paralyzes my brain. Selah.
I have just been interrupted and had a long, disjointed conversation with Q. We may "hook up" next month in Yosemite as my other California friend called today to tell me he is going to be gone for a week in August and that I can have his house. Q is ready to rumble, it seems. I don't know if I can get away then, though. To be seen.
Now I am ready to take to my bed and read some of Osborne's book. It would have been better earlier when I was still sober and more lucid. I may make three or four pages now, and not remember them in the morning.
I will probably update then. Ciao.
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I made it three or four pages and don't remember them this morning.
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